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Year of the Tiger
Jan. 2nd, 2022 12:43 amFor some reason, I think I tend to update around New Years at least. This year, I haven't had much to say.
I guess I post around this time because, due to working in education, I'm usually off work. Last year, I didn't have a job anyway.
My mom passed away a year ago, December 28th. She was on my mind a lot through the past month or so.
My Winter Break was mostly uneventful and boring. I felt like nobody I usually talk to had time to talk to me. I went to visit my dad and my dog. That was nice, but it is so easy to fall into a routine I wish I could just stay in. After 2020 and early 2021 being a sort of life without routine, it's hard not to miss it even though I know it's worse for me.
I think that I really need a life where my job is less demanding, even though I mostly enjoy my job, because when I'm working I don't do anything for myself. Then, when I'm not working, I mostly just sit around back-of-mind thinking about and dreading going back to work.
Unfortunately, mental health, life, and housing security are for people with partners, which I don't have.
I watched the 2009 movie Jennifer's Body for the first time tonight. I'd seen gifs of it and seen it lauded as a sapphic or feminist cult movie. I can see how it falls into something like that with an emphasis on horror, even though I have seen worse horror movies without turning them off. (There comes a point when the gore just isn't worth it.)
There's a lot of worldbuilding questions that it poses that are a bit more interesting than the movie itself. I know Jennifer Fox was done dirty by the industry, but I don't really pay that much attention to things about the industry because they're depressing. Amanda Seyfried is a really good actress and pulls off creepy sapphic really well. Her in-movie boyfriend and relationship with him was actually way too sympathetic for it to be easy to just go into "Yay murder girlfriends" the way some audience members seem to.
Some of the dialogue was really well-written, but like a lot of movies that go for transgressive ideas as their primary force, the ending kind of just seemed to... happen...
I guess it's a choice to make the audience continue to think about it afterward but it just seemed a little flat.
Anyway, I go back to work on Tuesday. Dreading it a little but at least the automatic action of trying to do a decent job is a distraction from being bored or unfulfilled.
I guess I post around this time because, due to working in education, I'm usually off work. Last year, I didn't have a job anyway.
My mom passed away a year ago, December 28th. She was on my mind a lot through the past month or so.
My Winter Break was mostly uneventful and boring. I felt like nobody I usually talk to had time to talk to me. I went to visit my dad and my dog. That was nice, but it is so easy to fall into a routine I wish I could just stay in. After 2020 and early 2021 being a sort of life without routine, it's hard not to miss it even though I know it's worse for me.
I think that I really need a life where my job is less demanding, even though I mostly enjoy my job, because when I'm working I don't do anything for myself. Then, when I'm not working, I mostly just sit around back-of-mind thinking about and dreading going back to work.
Unfortunately, mental health, life, and housing security are for people with partners, which I don't have.
I watched the 2009 movie Jennifer's Body for the first time tonight. I'd seen gifs of it and seen it lauded as a sapphic or feminist cult movie. I can see how it falls into something like that with an emphasis on horror, even though I have seen worse horror movies without turning them off. (There comes a point when the gore just isn't worth it.)
There's a lot of worldbuilding questions that it poses that are a bit more interesting than the movie itself. I know Jennifer Fox was done dirty by the industry, but I don't really pay that much attention to things about the industry because they're depressing. Amanda Seyfried is a really good actress and pulls off creepy sapphic really well. Her in-movie boyfriend and relationship with him was actually way too sympathetic for it to be easy to just go into "Yay murder girlfriends" the way some audience members seem to.
Some of the dialogue was really well-written, but like a lot of movies that go for transgressive ideas as their primary force, the ending kind of just seemed to... happen...
I guess it's a choice to make the audience continue to think about it afterward but it just seemed a little flat.
Anyway, I go back to work on Tuesday. Dreading it a little but at least the automatic action of trying to do a decent job is a distraction from being bored or unfulfilled.
