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Work for the first week back with the students has overall been... okay.
I often update this journal about real life when I'm complaining. Really, it's actually kind of nice to feel like my "improve upon" list is manageable and my "that went reasonably okay" list is longer. My third period class are assfaces quite a lot of the time in the won't ever shut up sense. My sixth period have a bit of that. They're slightly more respectful but extremely lazy in aggregate. My fifth period I'm overall really proud of, but there are like three students who are having some silent-in-front-of-me drama that centers around one of them who seems to have some pretty serious social issues that are somewhat unclear if they're ND or not. In any case, I'm doing my best for them, but it's hard to be on the absolute top of my game all day long. Still gotta learn to juggle the plates, I guess.
While I'm at work, I'm content except for momentary spikes in wanting to tell some specific students to shut up and stop trying to manipulate me out of giving them their education to the best of my ability.
Scares me how much some of the obviously most intelligent kids absolutely resent things that require them to think.
And I feel like while this job could be a good fit for another year or two - if it's even offered to me - the fact that I'll be able to finally apply to advance my license makes me start looking at other options. Even if the school isn't bad, the rental opportunities here suck (1 BR starts at $1400 for suburban bullshit living with nothing but some pretty scenery and moving to where they actually HAVE studios at ALL increases my commute and still doesn't help with the cost that much). I definitely get the sense my current living situation is only going to last through May.
So starting to do EFL again in the fall is looking increasingly attractive. I really want to go back to Japan in general, but I worry that I'm just remembering a time shortly before the pandemic and when I was still technically in my 20s. If they don't offer me my job back for the fall, that's the decision made pretty much, but if I'm put in the position to choose, I'm terrified of jumping out of having a salary to something that's very seasonal. However, the exit strategy would be that once I get my visa and adjust a little, I would be able to use my license to get an international school job, which would have much of the same expectations as my current job with less-and-different bullshit for the payoff.
There are a couple of writing challenges I'm thinking of doing. I keep telling myself that right now I don't need to sign up for any exchanges or commitment-based things. It does make me DO something, but I cut the last two SO close and that was with the winter break to help. However, there's a "Year of the OTP" thing I'm thinking about using very loosely to write about different ships because I don't have just one OTP. Some of the prompts seem good, though. I'll investigate a bit more tomorrow and if I decide to do it, copy it here for my reference.
I often update this journal about real life when I'm complaining. Really, it's actually kind of nice to feel like my "improve upon" list is manageable and my "that went reasonably okay" list is longer. My third period class are assfaces quite a lot of the time in the won't ever shut up sense. My sixth period have a bit of that. They're slightly more respectful but extremely lazy in aggregate. My fifth period I'm overall really proud of, but there are like three students who are having some silent-in-front-of-me drama that centers around one of them who seems to have some pretty serious social issues that are somewhat unclear if they're ND or not. In any case, I'm doing my best for them, but it's hard to be on the absolute top of my game all day long. Still gotta learn to juggle the plates, I guess.
While I'm at work, I'm content except for momentary spikes in wanting to tell some specific students to shut up and stop trying to manipulate me out of giving them their education to the best of my ability.
Scares me how much some of the obviously most intelligent kids absolutely resent things that require them to think.
And I feel like while this job could be a good fit for another year or two - if it's even offered to me - the fact that I'll be able to finally apply to advance my license makes me start looking at other options. Even if the school isn't bad, the rental opportunities here suck (1 BR starts at $1400 for suburban bullshit living with nothing but some pretty scenery and moving to where they actually HAVE studios at ALL increases my commute and still doesn't help with the cost that much). I definitely get the sense my current living situation is only going to last through May.
So starting to do EFL again in the fall is looking increasingly attractive. I really want to go back to Japan in general, but I worry that I'm just remembering a time shortly before the pandemic and when I was still technically in my 20s. If they don't offer me my job back for the fall, that's the decision made pretty much, but if I'm put in the position to choose, I'm terrified of jumping out of having a salary to something that's very seasonal. However, the exit strategy would be that once I get my visa and adjust a little, I would be able to use my license to get an international school job, which would have much of the same expectations as my current job with less-and-different bullshit for the payoff.
There are a couple of writing challenges I'm thinking of doing. I keep telling myself that right now I don't need to sign up for any exchanges or commitment-based things. It does make me DO something, but I cut the last two SO close and that was with the winter break to help. However, there's a "Year of the OTP" thing I'm thinking about using very loosely to write about different ships because I don't have just one OTP. Some of the prompts seem good, though. I'll investigate a bit more tomorrow and if I decide to do it, copy it here for my reference.
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