Still too tired

[prixmium]

I got home about an hour earlier today and slightly less disgusting. It got back up in the 90s F today with humidity to spare, but about time work as winding down, some wind blew in what was supposed to be rain but which was a temperature drop of about 10F in an hour, though that still left it in a more comfortable but still quite warm 80s range.

Managed to clean my dishes that had been sitting for two days. Was going to try to cook something but realized the eggplant from the mail had started to go bad, so screw it, I'll wait for the weekend. I have to work this Saturday but only a half day and I get to sleep in.

I'm still just feeling so brain-cooked and frustrated. I want to be creative, but I always just feel like I'm in trouble for not doing enough to entertain the friends I have who care what I do.

I got a little notebook in the mail. Plan to use it for prayer journaling due to the whole brain-is-too-slippery-and-overheated feeling.

I also wrote in my little Japanese study notebook I started before I moved here in 2024 for the first time since. Something about my old boss's approach to "encouraging" me to learn Japanese just made me pissed off for over a year. At least I am doing something, but I want to do things that don't just feel practical without being too tired to function.

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[popkin16]

There have been a lot of changes for me at work - my boss left, my favorite co-manager is leaving, stupid changes are coming - so I feel sooo burned out by the time I get home from work. So I relate to the "too tired" feeling.

I'm sorry your boss pissed you off about learning Japanese. It's funny that sometimes a bad approach or conversation can make you reluctant to do something you wanted to do (not that I'm saying you wanted to. Just saying sometimes it makes humans spiteful lol).

[prixmium]

Boooo I hate negative changes. I am sorry you are going through that. And yeah, that feeling of being "burned" lasts way too long.

But no, like, I look back at this little book and I was motivated and excited, but then I was exhausted by a new job, and she was so bitchy about the fact that I had to have her help me with a few things on the phone when I first got adjusted.

[popkin16]

Thank you 😔 I'm going to wait and see how things play out and then get the hell out if I gotta.

That's AWFUL. People who are new are going to need help, and there's no point in being bitchy about it. I can see why you'd be entirely put off the entire thing :\