Boredom

[prixmium]

Well, I went through COVID for two weeks and basically slept through them. I'm getting better now, but I still have my COVID-brain I think. Or it could be repressed grief. I sleep a lot, but that means dreaming about my mom a lot, and some of them are frighteningly self-aware.

I am having trouble focusing on anything, and it amazes me how much of my life was wrapped up in interactions that involved my mom. My dad and I have a pretty good relationship, but I feel like both of us don't feel a lot like conversation when we're getting over this illness and nothing is going on in our lives.

I wish I could concentrate on anything. I wish I could write fic or play a game or do much of anything, but I feel like the lack of feedback from anything makes it hard to get back onto anything.

Comments

[kara_mckay]

Hi, there. I'm sorry to hear things have gone so badly for you, and I'm also sorry I never checked back in on DW much after I switched to PF. I hope you and your dad feel better soon, and I'm very sorry for your loss.

[st_aurafina]

Oh man, you've been through the wringer the last few months. Be gentle with your poor brain, if you can. I hope you are feeling better/more able to concentrate soon.

[princessofgeeks]

So glad you are getting better. Be good to yourself.

[brithistorian]

Glad to hear you're getting better, and sorry to hear about all the other things. Hopefully things will start improving.

[anirrationalseason]

*hugs and prayers*

[mxcatmoon]

Sorry you were sick, but I'm glad you are getting better. I definitely think grief does a number on the immune system. The winter after my mother died I got the worst case of flu I've ever had in my life (in fact I've only had it twice).

💙hugs💙

[oldtoadwoman]

💙

[dorchadas]

I'm glad you're recovering from the plague, but I'm sorry you're still having such a bad time! I hope you're back to your pre-COVID self soon and that you have an easier year going forward.

[mindstalk]

My sympathies and wishes.