Since I've been back at work, I keep getting sleepy between 7 and 8 PM and I guess it's better than not getting enough sleep, but it's a shame that there's such a thin line between too little and too much.
Last night, I had the thought to follow some links on![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
svgurl's post and sign up for the ![[community profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/community.png)
communal_creators thing as I keep complaining about the lack of community.
Then I immediately needed to go to bed.
Today, they let us leave from work a bit more than an hour early due to ongoing typhoon rain and general morale boost, I guess, since we all have to come in on Saturday tomorrow even if we aren't Saturday staff people.
I find that I don't mind the ebb and flow too much as long as they're not being assholes about making us sit in meetings that mean nothing to anyone.
I almost veered off to go to eat something at some restaurant, but I have been trying to manage both my time and my eating a bit differently since I got back. I will always be someone who thinks cheap eating out isn't any less responsible than cooking for oneself when the costs are relatively comparable when averaged out. However, I have noticed that when I am in a place where to go anywhere that isn't right around my work station costs two more hours plus the time I'm sitting there to eat that doing it on weekdays isn't as worth it as my anxiety would tend to tell me. It is less of a slog to cook at home and feel unrushed, which is sort of a new feeling for me.
While I was waiting for soup to finish simmering and then eating all the soup I couldn't put away in two containers, I watched a couple more episodes of Twin Peaks, which I started half-watching while I was at home, hanging out with little Charlie.
This time, I felt the inklings of thought about my own fannish projects while thinking about the show, which is at least promising, but by the time I was finished with watching eating, I think I'm too sleepy to actually do anything tonight. I keep waking up at some point before or after midnight, if only to relieve my bladder, and I wish I could get another hour or so of self-time in there and go back to bed on a sort of dual-sleep model, but I feel like to make that happen, I'm going to have to pull my stupid-early bedtime back even earlier to where it feels more like a nap and my reawakening time is slightly earlier. I used to do that all the time, but I haven't since moving to Japan, really.
Last night, I had the thought to follow some links on
svgurl's post and sign up for the communal_creators thing as I keep complaining about the lack of community. Then I immediately needed to go to bed.
Today, they let us leave from work a bit more than an hour early due to ongoing typhoon rain and general morale boost, I guess, since we all have to come in on Saturday tomorrow even if we aren't Saturday staff people.
I find that I don't mind the ebb and flow too much as long as they're not being assholes about making us sit in meetings that mean nothing to anyone.
I almost veered off to go to eat something at some restaurant, but I have been trying to manage both my time and my eating a bit differently since I got back. I will always be someone who thinks cheap eating out isn't any less responsible than cooking for oneself when the costs are relatively comparable when averaged out. However, I have noticed that when I am in a place where to go anywhere that isn't right around my work station costs two more hours plus the time I'm sitting there to eat that doing it on weekdays isn't as worth it as my anxiety would tend to tell me. It is less of a slog to cook at home and feel unrushed, which is sort of a new feeling for me.
While I was waiting for soup to finish simmering and then eating all the soup I couldn't put away in two containers, I watched a couple more episodes of Twin Peaks, which I started half-watching while I was at home, hanging out with little Charlie.
This time, I felt the inklings of thought about my own fannish projects while thinking about the show, which is at least promising, but by the time I was finished with watching eating, I think I'm too sleepy to actually do anything tonight. I keep waking up at some point before or after midnight, if only to relieve my bladder, and I wish I could get another hour or so of self-time in there and go back to bed on a sort of dual-sleep model, but I feel like to make that happen, I'm going to have to pull my stupid-early bedtime back even earlier to where it feels more like a nap and my reawakening time is slightly earlier. I used to do that all the time, but I haven't since moving to Japan, really.
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Date: 2025-09-06 03:54 am (UTC)From:I wish I could have 1 good night of sleep, whether or not that means I have to go to bed 7-8pm. I just don't sleep well :(
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Date: 2025-09-07 07:28 am (UTC)From:My best friend suffers with insomnia, too, and I hate the very idea of it. :(
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Date: 2025-09-07 11:30 pm (UTC)From:It's AWFUL. I really need to talk to a doctor about it...
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Date: 2025-09-06 03:11 pm (UTC)From:Do you have any ideas what could be causing you to get sleepy at that time of evening?
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Date: 2025-09-07 08:46 pm (UTC)From:I'm going to have to pull my stupid-early bedtime back even earlier to where it feels more like a nap and my reawakening time is slightly earlier. I've tried this a couple times but it feels like a once-in-a-blue-moon tactic when I really need a reset. As bad as late nights are for work, etc., I do so love them.