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I stayed home all day on Saturday. Given my lifestyle, I often find it very hard to carve out a day where I don't spend a couple hours at least walking around, sitting in a restaurant just to eat, or whatever.

I had a bunch of meat I decided I needed to cook which had finally thawed. I made some of it into chili and some of it into sloppy joe with a sauce recipe I found online.

I also spent quite a bit of time tidying and throwing things away. My apartment isn't immaculate by any means, but I did a few things that had been put off for weeks now, and it's nicer to walk into for me.

I still feel a little sad about the impermanence, but I'm also looking forward to hopefully changing jobs early next year.

I stayed home mostly because I knew I'd be going out today, Sunday. I went with a coworker to visit the main church in Utsunomiya. I technically work in a church, or a building that serves as a church on Sunday. I live five minutes away from it, but despite this I've never actually attended a service. I attended a baptism celebration once. But I guess, I just kind of want to keep an extra day away from my boss most weekends, and she'd end up being the interpreter if I went. I care for my boss as a human being who's trying her best but I don't want to be best friends with her.

The woman who took me to the church is only a worker a couple days a week, and she doesn't have any authority over me, so I was much more comfortable.

Next weekend, I have to go on Sunday on a day trip. I say have to. More weird social obligations. But I mostly look forward to it. Sometimes it's nice to have plans, but I seriously am so tired of associating with things that are tangentially related to work that most of the time I don't want to.

I also got my nails done today. I've only had them done twice since being in Japan. I do it because it makes me feel a little less unkempt and frumpy but also because gel nails just... don't break or tear, which is nice.

This weekend, I also got a friend to watch The Untamed with me, second episode, and he got me to watch two episodes of the Fallout series.

I would really like to write for The Untamed fandom but dunno how to start.

Ugh I just wish it didn't feel like such an uphill battle to write anything in today's fandom climate. It's lonely.