An update

I apologize for not giving a more timely update to any of you who commented on my previous post about my mother's health. I'm writing this when half-asleep, so I wanted to acknowledge each of the comments, but I didn't do anything personalized the way I usually do.

I'm going to put the mom's health update under a cut out of courtesy.

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But in spite of all of these things, I want people to know that I'm... okay. I suppose it's a survival mechanism, but I don't have intense grief most of the time. I am keeping my brain busy and distracted most of the time, while trying to cherish any quality time I have with my mom.

More than anything, the grief I feel is about things in my life that she may never get to see, but in a way I'm fine that I'm basically the same person she's known for the past 20 years of my life.

In completely other news I started a Dragon Age tumblr here: couslandofhighever. I've been there a little bit lately, though for the past few weeks, I have been in fic exchange zone and not been much of anywhere but discord. You may also add me there! If you want it, DM me or something.

I am writing this post at a moment when I feel some mix of anxious and calm. I just had a quiet hour when I was awake with nothing to do, so I thought it would be a good idea to write all this down, for anyone who is interested and for my own future reference.

I really should commit to journaling more, privately or publicly, because sometimes I feel like my consciousness is a forgotten blur.