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missing connections
Sep. 30th, 2024 12:44 pmI'm currently really exhausted. Monday was not terrible, but it was, indeed, a Monday, and at my current job the hour of 5:00 PM to 6:00 PM on Monday is easily the worst hour of the entire week due to some rowdy little jerk boys who aren't managed well at all due to the nature of my job. Fuck all I can do about it.
Can't believe we're to the point where, technically here in Japan, it's October, even though I have my laptop set to home-time because I like the reference when I'm talking to my friends, and I couldn't be bothered to change it.
In a recent few posts, I've talked about both the way I feel people who have children and grandchildren are privileged over those of us who don't, regardless of the reasons why, and about how I feel really lost without my mom sometimes lately.
I miss her a lot, and it haunts me how I just... don't have grandparents, only have one parent left, and while I have a virtual nation of cousins, I don't really have an ongoing relationship with any of them.
I feel adrift in the world. It's nice to not be tied down, in ways, but the devastation of Helene back home in Appalachia has gotten me weirdly homesick.
Can't believe we're to the point where, technically here in Japan, it's October, even though I have my laptop set to home-time because I like the reference when I'm talking to my friends, and I couldn't be bothered to change it.
In a recent few posts, I've talked about both the way I feel people who have children and grandchildren are privileged over those of us who don't, regardless of the reasons why, and about how I feel really lost without my mom sometimes lately.
I miss her a lot, and it haunts me how I just... don't have grandparents, only have one parent left, and while I have a virtual nation of cousins, I don't really have an ongoing relationship with any of them.
I feel adrift in the world. It's nice to not be tied down, in ways, but the devastation of Helene back home in Appalachia has gotten me weirdly homesick.
