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I fell off the wagon the past couple of days. Struggling emotionally to motivate myself. Feeling sort of bogged down by work and the vigilance it requires and had a killer headache last night. Anyway, here are some attempts at catching up on this list.
8. When I’m in pain — physical or emotional — the kindest thing I can do for myself is…
My first instinct is to throw myself into something, be it sleep or some activity or place where I have to stop myself from breaking down. But all that's doing is avoiding the consequences of pain. At this point, it would probably be just to let myself cry.
9. Make a list of the people in your life who genuinely support you, and who you can genuinely trust. (Then make time to hang out with them.)
1. My parents, especially my dad. (My mom just usually lacks the spoons for it and has her own untreated issues.)
And they're pretty much the only people I can make time to hang out with. Everyone else is thousands of miles away.
2. My close friends online are the other others I have, and I make an effort to spend time with them but feel like my ability to be engaging to them is shrinking.
10. What does unconditional love look like for you?
I think unconditional love is when you choose to honor your commitment to loving someone even when you don't like their actions. It is risking a person's ire in the moment for their long-term benefit. It is being selfless when it is genuinely helpful but also standing up for yourself when a person you love tries to demand or abdicate things that aren't helpful to your relationship or to them as a person.
8. When I’m in pain — physical or emotional — the kindest thing I can do for myself is…
My first instinct is to throw myself into something, be it sleep or some activity or place where I have to stop myself from breaking down. But all that's doing is avoiding the consequences of pain. At this point, it would probably be just to let myself cry.
9. Make a list of the people in your life who genuinely support you, and who you can genuinely trust. (Then make time to hang out with them.)
1. My parents, especially my dad. (My mom just usually lacks the spoons for it and has her own untreated issues.)
And they're pretty much the only people I can make time to hang out with. Everyone else is thousands of miles away.
2. My close friends online are the other others I have, and I make an effort to spend time with them but feel like my ability to be engaging to them is shrinking.
10. What does unconditional love look like for you?
I think unconditional love is when you choose to honor your commitment to loving someone even when you don't like their actions. It is risking a person's ire in the moment for their long-term benefit. It is being selfless when it is genuinely helpful but also standing up for yourself when a person you love tries to demand or abdicate things that aren't helpful to your relationship or to them as a person.
